I run myself a hot bath and soak until the water cools to lukewarm, trying to
forget the roads that connect our houses. In the grocery store, I stand in front
of the avocado display. There are thirteen and all too green. I try to think of a
New Year’s resolution that someone might keep like—Plant a fruit tree. I
cradle a small oval and pulse my palm testing for ripeness, hoping its green is
deceiving me. Once, I read somewhere that avocado trees flower perfectly
with both male and female parts, so no need for two trees. I trace each letter
on my grocery list until the round bellies of my b’s and p’s make words again.
At home, my avocadoes have gone bad at the bottom of an iron fruit basket.
Their darkness stands out from orange citrus, skins dimpled and over-ripe. I
split each pear-shape and expose the seed, scoop the yellow-brown mush
from the leathery walls, salt the souring flesh and taste it. I pierce a single
seed with toothpicks and set it in a water jar, bottom-half submerged.
