by Julia Kolchinsky Dasbach
Toilet paper wings
trailing behind him, my son
flaps through the house.
He’s unraveled the entire roll
in seconds, that’s all it took
to leave so much white behind,
on the floor and in the air
and in his hands. That’s how he burned,
I think, Icarus that is, but my son
isn’t reaching for the sun yet
and I haven’t taught him intent,
that arms transform
when they move that quickly,
that the body is always just an instant
away from becoming
something else, from leaving
the ground or returning to it.
And he falls, on his knees
or face, flat to the hardwood, falls
without knowing how
it happened and rises
having forgotten he ever fell.
Maybe we need that too, to forget
or fall more, to move against
the past instead of towards it,
because underwater, the wax
must have congealed
back to wings around him
as the backwards sun
swallowed the whole
bird of him, clouds and body
strewn inside out,
left white and bare
as the hottest part
of a dying flame
or a star maybe,
one we watch night after night
forgetting it must have died
so long ago
to still trail the sky.
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